a text message and a missed calls in the morning.

harap-harap cemas dengan datangnya sebuah pesan atau telepon..
ah, pagi-pagi sudah dibikin harap-harap cemas..
apa sih enaknya hidup yang selalu dpenuhin dengan harap-harap cemas dan kegelisahan tingkat tinggi...
menyebalkan kalau kata gw,ok, mungkin orang-orang terdekat bakal bilang
"pet, kalau harap-harap cemas bisa bikin hidup tuh lebih berwarna"..
oh iya gitu??mana berwarnanya?? yang ada warnanya abu-abu..

satu jam berlalu, bisa aja gw seneng tapi di menit ke lima belas bisa aja gw jadi drop, jadi mana yang namanya hidup berwarna??
dan yang paling bikin pusing dari segala hal yang bisa bikin pusing.
ga bisa berhenti memikirkan dia..
duuh, feels like hell on earth..i am not saying its not good but its killing for trying so fu**kin hard to find a way to get along with the person...

wanna tell you something..wanna show you something..but seem i can't really wait, its something inside rush me in to something which i don't really know..
is it going to be good,?? or is it going to be false???

bener kata Morrisey "the more you ignore me the closer i get".
klo katanya Lauren Wood "i can't believe how i have fallen for you, i was not looking was content to remain and it's ironic to be back in the game".
klo katanya Imogen Heap "Skipping beats,
Blushing cheeks.
I am... struggling..
Daydreaming,
Bed scenes in... the corner cafe
And then I'm left in bits recovering tectonic... tremblings
You get me every time.

Why'd ya have to be so cute?
It's impossible to ignore you..
Must you make me laugh so much?
It's bad enough we get along so well..
Say goodnight and go"

inhale and then exhales by saying "life oooh life..why would it be if i just left being alone for the rest of my life"

one thing for sure that recenlty i've been thinking about, being 'together' its just temporary, no one really end their life 'together'..all came into this world alone and left alone..damn,you guys are trully alone...

tulisan pagi yang ga penting...pengen ngeluarin sesuatu aja,pngen kluar dari rutinitas and maybe i just not ready for this...