That day, that moment was never ever cross my mind.
The moment i have been waiting for.
Moment, that somehow i created a situation or action before you come back from your time travel.
I created that on my mind. Is just feel so real in my mind.
Somehow, i hope it will make you happy or at least you will secretly smile on your way back home.
But, it never happen. it was never real.
I was too busy avoiding you.
It all happened in a second and was never planned.
It all happened accidently. You came back from your time travel.
After five months away from you.
After all things happened in between.
You showed up.
I saw you from that chair.
You were busy with your things and you reacted as if there is nothing happened between us.
You reacted as if there was no "US" in our life time.
Oh, you are playing it very well. I salute you very much.
I freeze. I trembled. I need more air to breathe. I never felt so hard to breathe in my whole life time.
You made me hard to breathe. You made me look like a fool.
But, you know?. I don't mind, I don't deny it. Yes, I am in love with you, still in love with you.
Even though, i really don't know where this will lead to.
I do still screamed and willing hard to hug you more longer.
Just to feel you, if you are still there.
I assume, you are not there anymore.
Your non-verbal said crystal clear to me.
You and I has nothing more left to say.
When you are away. I build this great wall. Brick by brick.
But, that night, I stopped building my great wall.
I lost couple of bricks to build. Lost the good cement to help me glued the brick.
No, you don't have to worry about me.
If this make you happy, then I should be happy even it hurt me so much.
But, I love you.
You know, I always there, standing near you.
To watch you, to care about you and to send you my love through my prayer every night.
Now, everything starts in ground zero.
From something to nothing.
Yours.
