So, i kind of rewarding myself with a bottle of beer and old british movie. Surprisingly its an inspiring movie. Sort of giving a new refreshing moments. Sad thing is, watching movie used to cured me, but now, somehow, it doesn't do much. Something is definitely wrong with me is it?.
This life that i am living now its suppose to be the "moment" where i finally have the "solitary" and building my own "lego", starting from zero. Well, not literally zero. Is just that i had so many experiences before i got here. What happened before was actually driven me to do something big, which is something i have always dreamed about. And yes, i got it and on progress. I never picture how i can do this. All of this, sort of "new" to me, it gives me the senses of being alive, more alive.
What i do need right now is the muse. The muse to push me from what ever stopped me of doing something.
To be honest, i really don't know what i want to write exactly. There is a big messy puzzle in my head, need to be solve in a hurry. But, i'll be fine, i'll sort all of this. I am enjoying the process. Keep rewarding myself, meanwhile my head is on loading to the line where i can finally have what i dream, want and need.
